Dance Through the Flames

     I’ve written a lot about change in perspective and how hard situations can help shape a person. I’ve had a few people have comments such as I’m knieve, in my approach to some things, and that I don’t live in reality. I assure you I’m very aware of what’s going on around me. I choose to perceive it different than most, but not ignorant of situations around me. I choose to see some good in all things.
     I know there are a lot of people struggling right now and have not been super open to share this blog but feel like now is the right time. I spent many months stuck in my house in total fear every time I left with my cancer and infection.It forced me, for my kids, to try my best to make the best out of every situation. To look at the opportunity that each day COULD bring. This did not mean that I woke up happy to approach each day. A lot of days it seemed like it took a large amount of effort and I didn’t always succeed, but with trying every day it gave me the chance to learn how to embrace each day. I feel like this has put me a step ahead of our current situation and wanted to share.
      Each day is presenting a new opportunity to learn something new about yourself or to make a better situation. For instance: You could look at today as another day stuck at home bored and depressed or embrace this day to learn something new. We live in a beautiful area, take a field trip. Millard County has tons of beautiful sights I wasn’t even aware we had and I’ve grown up here. You can find directions on the Millard Country tourism sight. We were able to find books online and will turn this weekend camping trip into a history lesson at the area we are camped at. Thanks to our amazing teachers we have been able to turn snack time into a fun science lesson. Can’t wait for 80’s day. Let’s see how bright our makeup is, we have unlimited resources for music from the comfort of our homes to get us up and moving. Who cares if I can’t dance. To mess up the moves it just gives us another chance to laugh. Maybe even learn how to do them correctly and relive some stress doing it. FaceTime it with some friends. Need more ideas, I’m just a message away. I had months to lay around and think of stuff but was to weak to do all of them and am more than happy to share.
      Make sure to still take a time out when needed. Sometimes when you have all the time in the world it makes it even harder to take care of yourself. It may require even more effort. A hot bath, a quiet walk, rebuild a transmission (we all have our quarks 😜) or a home spa day can help brighten a bad mood. Heck, do them all if you have the time.
     Melt downs are still going to happen. In fact had a small one myself yesterday. Super frustrating to just get things going good at work from my experience with cancer to just have things drop off again. But my attitude today is I’ll just have to rebuild again and thankful I’ll get the opportunity to do it. Guess my point is everyone goes through a degree of there own hell at some point in there lives but you have the choice each day to sit in the flames and dwell on how hard it is or you can choose to dance through them. They are going to be there either way. Sometimes it’s not an easy choice to dance because it still hurts, but it is a choice just the same.
   

Lessons

     Funny how life is full of stride and set backs. I’ve spent the last two years trying desperately to get back in shape. Exercise was a wonderful outlet for me before I got sick. I loved going for a run to clear my mind. Ended up with a bum leg after surgeries and re-learning a new outlet has been more difficult than you would think but has given me the new opportunity to learn things I may not have learned otherwise. We took up kayaking last year as a new adventure that’s been huge success! Tried Zumba for the first time last week and loved the atmosphere, however found out the hard way after being skinned from ribs to groin, that scar tissue does not shake it well.
     So happy to be enjoying a walk on my treadmill this morning. Still a little tender but happy just the same. It made me think about all my blessings. I now know what it’s like to spend years wishing to not be over weight, but know exactly how scary it can be to spend months trying desperately to gain weight. I know what it’s like to say a prayer wishing to die, but to spend months fighting to live. So thankful for all my blessings. I love that I can understand that just because another persons battle isn’t as big as mine or even bigger, it’s the biggest battle they have had to fight thus far, and is every bit as big to them. What battle will you win today? Mine was my treadmill. Hoping to make a Ford fly and see if a simple mud race can greatly boost a local economy. Never know until you try. What else can I learn?❤️