I find myself so frustrated with our current situation as most others do but also seem to not have let it affect my life as many have. Granted we are in a better situation than most. Talked to many struggling with business, life and mental health but have yet to experience anyone sick from this which can give a different outlook. I suppose if I was surrounded by sickness or was still fighting cancer/infection my outlook would be different.
I remember being so scared of getting sick during my cancer/infection. Sending my kids to school knowing that a simple cold could be a very big deal. Being so terrified I couldn’t sleep because I wasn’t sure what was happening and taking anxiety medication just so I could make it through my kids performance. It’s amazing the control fear of the unknown can have over a person.
Fear can come in all shapes and sizes for all people. I can definitely understand how fear has control over people’s actions right now. Even if they don’t realize it themselves. I also understand how perspective plays a roll in this.
My perspective while I was sick or (at risk) from pandemic would have been greatly different than it is now from having that behind me. I understand that each person has a unique perspective on our current situation. This is just my view as of now.
I understand it would be hard to view the value of life if it wasn’t put in jeopardy of being lost. I hope in some way society will have gained a little of this view when this pandemic is behind us. After having the experience I did with cancer I was gifted a little more of this view which has altered my view of fear.
After being through such an experience and having plenty of time to lay in bed and ponder life. My new fear is very different. I’m very aware that I could contract Covid and get very ill but I’m also very aware that cancer comes back for a lot of people and that is a very real reality for me. To have beat cancer once and be given the chance to make an almost full recovery is such a great gift! My new fear is to not get to live this gift to the fullest. Although COVID is a very scary thing and I can completely relate to the fear people have of it, I can assure you that my new fear is just as real.
My point behind this is to be kind. You never understand exactly what someone is going through. You may be very scared of dying but some people are very scared of not being able to live.
